Joaquin’s 1st Day

Today is Joaquin’s 1st day in Junior Nursery. The day started with me being excited and nervous for Joaquin. We woke up really early so we can prepare for school. I had a hard time waking up my little batugan though. Poor Joaquin because he had no idea why I was waking him up that early. We were ready to leave the house around 7:10 am already instead of the 7:00 am time I planned. That means uh-oh since a few minutes late makes a big difference. 

When we left the house, I was driving fast and praying so that my Joaquin would not be late on his first day. While driving, Joaquin was eating his breakfast in the car since we were late already. Hehe following the footsteps of mommy and daddy. Wawa naman.

Thank God we were just late for about 10 minutes so other kids were still getting inside but most of them were inside the classroom already. When we got to his classroom, animal toys were on top of the table which got Joaquin really excited. But instead of going straight for the toys, he was hiding behind my back and trying to peek inside the room. Cute! Then slowly he went inside since teacher was calling him. He got some of the animals and started getting comfy to the point where he was going to take off his shoes just like at home! Oh no! So I started saying, “Joaquin don’t take off your shoes, look at the other kids they’re wearing shoes.” Then he realized that and started to sit down along with the other kids. That’s when I said goodbye and for the first time, left him to be on his own – no mommy, no yaya.

That’s when I started to get nervous. I am not sure though why. Maybe I was afraid he would not like school. Maybe I was afraid that he would start looking for mommy or yaya. Maybe I left him to be on his own too soon, I should have stayed and observed first. I don’t know why but I was really nervous for him. Even when I got to the office, the whole time I was nervous until school ended at 10 am. As soon as my watch hit 10 o’clock, I called Yaya Lynlyn to check on Joaquin. 

The first question I asked was, “Naghanap ba?” And the answer of yaya that I never expected was, “Hindi naman. Very good daw si Joaquin sabi ni teacher, ang ibang bata kasi natutulog at umiiyak.” Wow! That was all I wanted to hear. After all the anxiety of 1st Day in Junior Nursery, it was great to know that my Joaquin made it through. And the best of all, he did not just make it through his first time in school, he did great! 

It may sound corny, but I am glad to say, I am one proud Momma!

 

New Office

“A whole new world… A new fantastic point of view…”

That is what I’m feeling right now. NEW NEW NEW. Study again for the next chapter in my life.

Why?

I am sad. While waiting for Jay in my car, I saw a mother and her daughter, around 5 years old, sleeping on top of Mercury Drug’s aircon compressor not far from where I was. The mother was hugging her kid as if they were in a comfortable bed. My heart suddenly felt heavy. Then I felt anger as to why a mother would allow this to happen to her child. Why not find a decent job? Why not work hard and strive for the betterment of her child? Why not suffer a little to create a better future for her child? Why settle for the life they have now? Why not wish of something good for her child? Why?  

All these boggling questions were entering my mind. Then I realized I was judging the mother. I do not know her. I do not know her story. Why she and here daughter were there and how they ended up sleeping on top of the compressor. I do not know if she tried and is still trying the best way she knows how to take care of her child. What she is doing now may be the best already for her. No one knows but only her and God.  

Then I remembered what has been always said, God has a purpose for everything. Nothing happens by accident. God has his own reason for putting the mother and dauhter there. What’s important is God knows what’s best for us and we are where we are supposed to be.

I am once again reminded about my Faith in God. The fate of the mother and child I saw must be lifted up to God. My own worries and insecurities must be lifted up once again to God. I must have more Faith in Him and believe that I am where I am supposed to be now. Situations may sometimes be difficult to handle, but I know that God intended them to be that way because He has a bigger plan for everyone.